Recovery Changed My Family

– Written by Elizabeth Tipton, The Next Generation Board Member

Like many people, I have seen the impact of drug and alcohol addiction on friends and family.  Addiction can wreak havoc on an individual and everyone whose lives they touch.  I have also seen the amazing healing and transformation that recovery can bring. Fifteen years ago this month, an immediate family member went into treatment for alcohol addiction.  At that point, I thought that our family was ruined–textbook dysfunctional.  We would never be able to relate or interact in a loving, healthy way, and my personal relationship was irrevocably damaged; I would always resent them for the pain they had caused and for the responsibility I had to take in their absence.  It’s one thing to say you’re ready to make a change and check into treatment. It’s another thing entirely to change who you are. It was going to take some serious growth for me to consider making myself vulnerable again.

We spent Christmas 2004 visiting our loved one in treatment, and although only a few weeks into recovery, I was blown away by the change.  Accountability and honesty took the place of resentment and hostility.  It sounds hokey and too good to be true, but after that trip it was as if we were all distilled down to the people we were meant to be.  Over the following weeks, months, and years, our family healed and adopted a new way to interact with each other. The foundations that treatment and recovery provide have enabled my whole family to live much more openly, respectfully, and gratefully.  What a blessing we have received through the teachings of recovery and the twelve-step program.

I was asked to be one of the founding members of the Next Generation, TND’s young professional board, in the fall of 2016.  I thought that joining TNG of TND would be a great way to give back to a process and program that has given me such love and clarity over the last fifteen years. After serving as the board Vice President last year and President this year, I have certainly volunteered my time to TND. But I have gained so much more from this group that I can ever repay.  I have learned so much from my fellow board members. This is a group of women who are doers.  They come to our bimonthly meetings ready to serve, filled with ideas of how to give back to the wider Next Door community.  They volunteer their time with clients on Saturday nights and spend time showering the staff with gratitude. The Next Generation started hosting an annual songwriters night last year as a fundraiser for TND.  I could not be more proud to serve with this group of women and am grateful to The Next Door for bringing us together.

WOVEN

– Written by Tambi Swiney, Spiritual Wellness Coordinator

Geneology

Genealogy has become an incredibly popular hobby and a multi billion-dollar industry in the United States in recent years. Why? Because people are curious about their family’s roots. They want to know where they came from, who they came from. They want to uncover stories unique to their family, as well as stories that locate their family in a broader historical context. In learning more about our ancestors—by understanding how God has woven our stories together—we can connect the present to the past and find hope for the future.

This interest in family lineage, though, is not new. Notably, the New Testament begins with a genealogy. Matthew opens his gospel with “a record of the ancestors of Jesus the messiah, a descendant of David and of Abraham” (Matthew 1:1). David and Abraham–two of Israel’s most famous ancestors. David, the shepherd boy who defeated Goliath with a slingshot; the songwriter whose music soothed King Saul’s troubled soul; the ruler who abused his kingly authority; the man after God’s own heart who confessed his sins. Abraham, the patriarch of patriarchs; the father who relocated his family when God called; the father who nearly sacrificed his son; the father of a great nation.

For those who are acquainted with the Old Testament, the genealogy of Jesus includes other familiar names–Isaac, Jacob, Solomon–as well as unfamiliar ones–Hezron, Ram, Amminadab. Jesus’ family tree, though dominated by men, includes five women with compelling stories: Tamar, Rahab, Ruth, Bathsheba, and Mary.

Tamar

Tamar’s story is heart-wrenching, a stark reminder of how women in that era were treated as property, passed down from one brother to the next when death occurred in order to produce offspring. According to Genesis 38, Abraham’s great-grandson, Judah, acquired Tamar to be the wife of his wicked firstborn son. After he died, she was disrespected by her brother-in-law and lied to by her father-in-law. Exercising agency, Tamar orchestrated a dramatic plan to confront Judah with his sin. As a result, she was accused of being a prostitute; the penalty for such an offense in that time was burning. But Tamar was not executed for her actions; instead, Judah admitted that her righteousness exceeded her own. Her life was spared, and she gave birth to twin sons. One of those sons, Perez, is listed among Jesus’ ancestors.

Rahab

While Tamar was accused of being a prostitute, Rahab is explicitly labeled as one in Scripture. As the Israelites prepared to cross the Jordan River to enter the Promised Land, their new leader, Joshua, dispatched two spies to Jericho to assess the situation. These spies took refuge in Rahab’s home, where she resourcefully kept them safely hidden when the king of Jericho’s men sought them out. After extracting a promise of protection from the spies, she helped them escape from the city, lowering them down a rope in the city wall. The spies kept their promise, and Rahab and her family were spared when the walls of Jericho came tumbling down.

Ruth

Ruth’s reputation stood in stark contrast to Rahab’s, even though she was an outsider. After Ruth’s husband died, she left behind her family and friends in Moab to accompany her recently widowed mother-in-law to Bethlehem. Boaz, a local landowner, took note of Ruth’s compassionate care of her mother-in-law and provided Ruth with a safe place in which to glean grain. Ruth ended up marrying Boaz, the son of Rahab.

Bathsheba

Bathsheba has an undeserved reputation as a wayward woman. Bathsheba was the victim of an abuse of power when King David decided to take her as his own. When she became pregnant, he sought to cover up his sin through a series of events that culminated with the death of Bathsheba’s husband, Uriah. Bathsheba’s grief was magnified when her baby died. David ultimately repented and took Bathsheba as his wife. She eventually gave birth to Solomon, who succeeded his father as king. Bathsheba is identified in Matthew’s genealogy of Jesus as “the wife of Uriah.”

Mary

The fifth woman mentioned in the genealogy is Mary. We know little about this Jewish teenager’s background. In Luke’s gospel, we learn that she accepted the Angel Gabriel’s stunning pronouncement that she would be the mother of God’s Son with grace and courage: “Here am I, servant of the Lord; let it be with me according to your word” (Luke 1:38). Although she would undoubtedly be the subject of local gossip, Mary believed that she was a blessed child of God, and she trusted God with her future.

Our Stories

Tamar. Rahab. Ruth. Bathsheba. Mary. Though they never met, their lives were connected across the generations, their stories woven together in the overarching narrative of God’s redemptive plan. None of them could have imagined that their names would appear in a genealogy of the Messiah.

God’s redemptive plan for the world extends to this generation. God is still at work weaving together the narratives of diverse individuals to bring healing from abuse, shame, grief, and suffering. At The Next Door, women are experiencing redemption which helps empower them for a lifetime of recovery.

Lives are being literally saved–redeemed–as the threads of generational addiction and abuse are snapped and replaced by threads of love, faith, hope, wholeness, community, respect, and encouragement. The compassionate, dedicated staff of The Next Door have chosen to intertwine their lives with women whose reputations often rival those of Tamar, Rahab, and Bathsheba. Many have lost people dear to them, like Ruth and Bathsheba did, and they need help navigating the pathways of grief. Others, like Mary, are ready for God to do a new work in their lives.

God is weaving lives together through The Next Door, and the resulting tapestry is stunningly beautiful. Will you weave yourself into the tapestry of The Next Door this year and join us in this life-saving work?

Live in Freedom

Rooted and Grounded in Love

– Written by Tambi Swiney, Spiritual Wellness Coordinator

In his letter to the church at Ephesus, after reflecting on his divine calling to share the good news of Jesus Christ with the Gentiles, the Apostle Paul records a heartfelt prayer for the Ephesian believers: “For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth takes its name. I pray that, according to the riches of his glory, he may grant that you may be strengthened in your inner being with power through his Spirit, and that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith, as you are being rooted and grounded in love.  I pray that you may have the power to comprehend, with all the saints, what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, so that you may be filled with all the fullness of God” (Ephesians 3:14-19).

Many of the clients at The Next Door cannot begin to fathom what it means to be rooted and grounded in love. Some were raised in family systems where they experienced abuse and rejection rather than love and acceptance. Instead of encouraging them to be their best, those they called friends brought out the worst in them. Those who guided them often exploited them or abandoned them in their time of need. Alcohol and drugs became their intimate friends, the life-threatening antidote to their pain. Spirits shattered by trauma. Minds altered by substances. Bodies broken by abuse. Many of our clients don’t know who they can trust–or if they can trust anyone, including God.

Cindy Sneed, The Next Door’s Chief Clinical Officer, reminds the staff and volunteers that our women need to know we will accept them at their worst and love them to their best. “Everything we do at The Next Door is about creating a safe environment–a sanctuary of the heart, mind, and soul. We must show them a biblical, unconditional love. The Next Door is a faith-based ministry that functions through evidence based clinical practices. This makes us unique in our field,” Cindy explains.

Our clients cannot be rooted and grounded in the love of Christ until they comprehend that they are worthy of Christ’s love. Every day, the staff and volunteers at The Next Door strive to cultivate an environment where women can experience the unconditional love of God, a place where they can learn to trust their Higher Power, others, and themselves again. Every day, we see evidence that love is taking root.

Since The Next Door first opened our doors over 15 years ago, the lives of over 8,400 women have been touched by God’s love through the words and actions of our compassionate staff and volunteers. Through our evidence-based substance abuse and mental health services, lives are being transformed, families are being reunited, communities are being strengthened.

Just as seeds must be sown in good soil in order to bear much fruit, the roots of recovery that will anchor a woman’s life for years to come will grow ever deeper in a soil–an environment–where her physical, mental, and spiritual needs are met, a place where love, faith, hope, wholeness, community, respect, and encouragement are core values. This is the model our staff and volunteers have maintained at The Next Door.

As the wild, praying women who were midwives to the birth of The Next Door can attest, God has done abundantly more than all they asked or imagined over the past 15 years. Clients are laying down roots that will anchor a lifetime of recovery as they learn the breadth and length and height and depth of the love of Christ.

“Now to him who by the power at work within us is able to accomplish abundantly far more than all we can ask or imagine, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever” (Ephesians 3:20-21).

Fall Benefit 2019

– Written by Laryssa Schepel, Community Outreach and Events Coordinator

My job title at The Next Door is “Community Outreach and Events Coordinator.” When introducing my role to others, I tell them that half of my time is spent cultivating relationships with local businesses and churches, and the other half is helping coordinate fundraising events at The Next Door. Although we have several fundraising events throughout the year, our biggest and most well-known event is our annual Fall Benefit. Formerly known as ‘the Luncheon,’ the Fall Benefit has grown tremendously, and for the second year in a row, we have added a breakfast event in addition to the luncheon to make room for our growing number of supporters.

This was my first Fall Benefit at The Next Door since I became a staff member 8 months ago. It was also the first Fall Benefit I have the honor of saying I played a role in coordinating. Boy, I can’t say I knew the work I was in for! The months spent recruiting table hosts, corporate sponsors, promoting our event, putting together the program… the list goes on and on. So much work and heart goes into putting on the very best program. I can’t believe that Kate, my incredible supervisor (and Director of Development at The Next Door), took on this event herself for more than four years. It is by no means an easy feat to pull off!

I know those who were there would agree that the program was moving and powerful. In my eyes, one of the most powerful moments of the program was Morgan Coyner’s speech. For those who don’t know, Morgan is my co-worker at TND, but she also shares an office with me. Morgan shared the story of her mom who unexpectedly lost her life to an opioid overdose just a few months ago. Her mother kept her addiction a secret for at least 12 years. There was not a dry eye in the room at the conclusion of Morgan’s speech. It was raw; it was vulnerable, and it was RELATABLE. There was something about Morgan’s story that allowed people in the room to understand that our clients aren’t just ‘addicts.’ They are one of us. They are daughters, sisters, wives, grandmas, nieces, and friends. We are no different than our clients and women who struggle with addiction. I know hundreds of people in the room related to Morgan’s story.

Another incredible takeaway from the Fall Benefit was hearing two former clients speak about how The Next Door is a “different” kind of treatment center. Through meetings with Jami and Brittney before the Benefit and hearing them share their stories on stage, I learned that women in prison talk about The Next Door as a place where there is a glimmer of hope for them. Women in prison cells and in hopeless places share that there is hope in this building. Hope really does live in the walls of The Next Door. Brittney mentioned that she felt the spiritual presence in our building as soon as she walked through the front door. Other clients have echoed this thought, even though many enter in an altered state of mind. There is something so beautiful about how 15 years ago, this ministry began through the obedience of a handful of women to whom God spoke His desire for The Next Door. It is evident that the Lord has blessed this ministry and His hand is on it.

The Lord is doing so many beautiful things here at The Next Door. The Fall Benefit is just one of the many avenues used to show hundreds of people how God is moving day in and day out. I will never take the privilege of coordinating such a special event lightly. What I have learned in the last 8 months at The Next Door and through the Fall Benefit is no matter who she is, or where she comes from, she is no different than you or me. She is one of us. And The Next Door is providing hope for women in dark places.

If you weren’t able to attend the benefit, you can watch it here.

Six Reasons to Participate in National Prescription Drug Take Back Day

-Kristi Fritch, Pharmacy Intern; Emily Kohal, Family Nurse Practitioner; Mel Kirby, Registered Nurse

National Prescription Drug Take Back Day

October 26, 2019 is National Prescription Drug Take Back Day Hosted by the Drug Enforcement Administration, it’s a day to promote best practices regarding medication and to give people a chance to return any medications they no longer need.

For the first time this year, they will also be accepting vaping devices and cartridges. Be sure to click the link above for more information.

Why should we return old medication anyway? If you’re like me, you have an entire bathroom drawer filled with old antibiotics, painkillers, and any other prescriptions you never finished taking. What’s the big deal about this? A few of our medical staff have the answer to this question!

Six Answers:
  1. There is a reason certain medications are prescribed vs. being over-the-counter.
    We are all familiar with certain medications like ibuprofen and Pepto-Bismol. These medications can be purchased anywhere—a drug store, the supermarket, a gas station—and we can make the choice whether to take them when symptoms arise. Not all medications work this way. Medications like antibiotics, narcotics, and other more powerful medications are only prescribed from health care professionals. This is an important distinction. Taking these medications without the proper counseling from your prescriber or pharmacist can be dangerous.
  2. Side Effects, Drug Interactions, Drug Allergies
    Prescription medications often have complex drug interactions and side effects. If someone gives you a pill that they were prescribed for migraine headaches, there’s a possibility that it can interact with a medication you already take. A health care professional can advise you about these reactions, but only if they know what medications you are taking. Drug allergies are like any other allergies – you don’t know you’re allergic until you have a reaction. These reactions can be life-threatening. A prescriber or pharmacist can warn you about these in advance, but often times, just reading the pill bottle is not enough.
  3. Unintentional spreading of opioid crisis/supporting those in active addiction
    A major way that people living in active addiction get access to pills is from medicine cabinets. If you have leftover opioids from a surgery, someone close to you may take them while using the bathroom at your house. We can stop the unintentional spread of the opioid crisis by giving back our medication when we are finished with it.
  4. Drugs lose efficacy over time.
    You may have heard the rumor that drug expiration dates aren’t “real.” Will you die from taking an old antibiotic? Probably not. However, drugs do lose their efficacy over time. This means that even if you take an expired pill for the right reason, it might not work as well as it did when it was first prescribed.
  5. Prescription medications are meant to be taken as prescribed.
    When we keep medication past its expiration, it often means we aren’t using the medication as prescribed. This is especially true of antibiotics. These are supposed to be taken in their entirety. When they aren’t, there’s a chance that the bacteria hasn’t been fully killed, and you can stay sick. Realistically, we wouldn’t have any leftover antibiotics. However, if we do, we aren’t taking them as prescribed when we decide we want to take them the next time we aren’t feeling well.
  6. Medication Safety
    It’s no secret that kids can get into anything. This include pill bottles. Keeping medication that’s unnecessary can be a hazard for children in the house.
What can you do?
  1. Return your medications. Click HERE to find a drop off location near you.
  2. Talk to your local pharmacist. They are the least utilized and most available providers in the health care field. You don’t need an appointment. Just go to your local pharmacy and ask for them. They want to help!

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Domestic Violence Awareness Month

– Written by Jane Saffles-Granville, Therapist

Many years ago, at a different job in a different state, I had a client who came to my agency with the worst black eye I had ever seen. She had fled an abusive relationship and was homeless in a strange city. Within a few weeks, her partner had come looking for her. We did our best to support her and protect her, but it wasn’t long before we saw them together, holding hands, the bruise having only just faded.

My colleagues and I were upset, of course. We’d seen how badly she had been hurt, how determined she’d been to escape, and how quickly she ended up back with her abuser. How could she, we asked ourselves? How could she go back?

As social services professionals, we knew the answer was far more complicated than it appeared on the surface. The cycle of violence is a vicious one to break, often like the cycle of addiction.

Domestic violence (DV, also known as intimate partner violence/IPV) and addiction often overlap; many of our women are survivors of domestic violence, and drug abuse among partners can escalate physical or emotional violence. Sometimes in group therapy, we talk about how similar they are. Early drug use may feel like falling in love. The drugs make you feel special and important. The drug is your closest friend, your confidant, your lover. That feeling doesn’t last long, though, and over time, it starts to hurt you—but you keep chasing that feeling you knew existed once, that first high.

Or maybe you know you can never get back there to that first high. You know how dangerous it is to keep trying, but getting away is even scarier. It’s the unknown; it’s risky and scary in ways you don’t know how to deal with, and at least you know (or think you know) how to be an addict.

When I make this analogy, I often see recognition in my client’s eyes as they nod, as if to say I know both those things. Clients have come to me, crying, asking both “How can I still love him?” and, “How can I still want to use?” It’s not a perfect analogy, but even though I know the psychology of relapse and the disease of addiction, part of me aches when I ask myself, “How could she go back?” when someone relapses.

From the outside, it seems simple: get away, get sober, don’t go back, but the tragedy of addiction and the tragedy of IPV are often the same.  At The Next Door, we exist to empower women—for recovery, for survival, for safety. For many of our women, lifetime recovery depends on breaking both the cycle of addiction and the cycle of violence.  Our core values help support this mission and give our clients the love, respect, encouragement, and resources to begin their lives safe and sober.

There’s another heartbreaking similarity between addiction and domestic violence: both are deadly. If you or someone you know might be experiencing abuse, please read more about the signs here (https://www.ywcanashville.com/domestic-violence/warnings/) and call a free, 24/7 crisis line 1-800-334-4628 for help.

Faith, Hope, and Recovery

– Written by Anna Derrington, Certified Peer Recovery Specialist

“Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” – Matthew 17:20

One day while I was sitting in treatment at The Next Door, a volunteer came to share some hope with my fellow group of residential clients. She read this scripture to us and shared a motivational story about having just the tiniest bit of faith and how it can be life changing to believe in something. When I think about faith the size of a mustard seed, I think about hope. Hope is one of our core values at TND, and it is the one that stood out to me most during my first days, weeks, and months of recovery.

The Next Door has a program for alumni called Aftercare. It is a support group for program graduates, and it was so impactful for me to be able to come back to The Next Door after leaving residential treatment. My first night attending Aftercare, the facilitator asked us to pick a word that meant something to us and to write it decoratively with paint pens on natural rocks. “Hope” is the word I wrote on my rock. I kept that rock with me everywhere I went. When I was asked a couple of months later to come share my story with current clients, I brought my rock in with me and held it while I shared my experience, strength, and “hope” with ladies sitting right where I had just been. That was in 2016. In 2017, I had the honor of being asked to speak at the main fundraising event for The Next Door. My rock was with me then as well. The following year, I was honored to transition from alumni to staff. Also, in 2018, TND’s big fundraising event’s theme was “Lead Me to The Rock.” During the event, all attendees were given rocks with positive and affirming words written on them. “Hope” is the word that was written on the random rock given to me that year. I found hope here at The Next Door, a little over three years ago.

At the beginning of treatment, I did not want to be here. The idea of getting sober seemed as impossible to me as moving mountains. The first two weeks were some of the most difficult of my life, but there is something special about The Next Door. It creates a safe and healing space for women. After I let go and began to trust the process, I found peace here. There came a point in my treatment where a shift happened, and I surrendered. A place I had not honestly wanted to come to became a place I did not want to leave. A lightbulb had turned on. I realized I didn’t have to use anymore. That realization flooded me with relief and freedom. I heard people say that before, but it took me a long time to accept the personal freedom in that truth.

Aftercare gave me an opportunity to keep coming back to the place where my life had changed and where my new life had begun. I came every Wednesday night from 6-7. On Thursdays and Sundays, I volunteered to bring a 12 Step meeting to the residential clients with the help of my sponsor and other women in the fellowship. I was encouraged to go back to school and finish my degree. One of my classes at Belmont asked me to do a service project, and I chose The Next Door. I started volunteering to serve lunch once a week. Sometimes I was asked to facilitate the Aftercare meetings. This was a huge honor! Eventually, a front desk volunteer was needed, and I was offered to start training for that position. I volunteered at the front desk and then applied to work there as an employee. I was hired part time! It was an absolute dream come true. A goal I had set for myself in early recovery had become a reality.

This recovery stuff is magic, I promise you that. When we keep doing the next right thing we are amazed at what transpires. This IS a promise. There are no words for the gratitude I have for this place, the people who work here, and the women who come here for treatment. Shortly after, I was asked to apply to be a Certified Peer Recovery Specialist. By staying connected, volunteering, and being asked to participate, I was able to set and achieve goals for myself. This was a huge contributing factor in my recovery.

Consistently coming back and engaging in meaningful participation helped me stay rooted in my recovery. I’ve always been interested in helping and adding to my community. Back in high school, I created a club called Hillsboro Helps to offer volunteer opportunities for the local students as well as Sudanese and Somali exchange students living in Nashville. I lost the desire for being involved with my community in active addiction, but Aftercare provided the opportunity for me to get reconnected and involved in my community. This was a gift. The Next Door, and being in recovery, has given me numerous gifts, including my life. And my life is tremendously wonderful today.

I did not fully realize in the early days of my recovery how important this place had become to me. It is only through reflecting back that I can see how essential The Next Door has been to my journey of finding my true and purposeful self. Being in recovery has given me the chance to figure out who I am. The person I’m turning into doesn’t want or need drugs and alcohol. I used drugs and alcohol as my solution for a long time. Now, I’m even better than I was when I first started using. I do not even slightly resemble the person I was before. That realization happened here, and The Next Door will always hold a very special place in my heart

Recovery can sometimes be hard, but it is far from impossible. Even if you start out with faith the size of a mustard seed—with hope—you can take steps towards healing with love and support.

Homecoming

You Matter!

– Janie Elkins, Certified Peer Recovery Specialist

My dream wasn’t to be an addict. When I was a little girl, I wanted to be a veterinarian. But addiction is not a choice. Sure, I made the choice to experiment, but it stopped being a choice quickly. It’s a brain disease. It makes our brains distort the truth. At 49 years old, I found myself in prison having lost the will to live. I’d been using drugs for 30 years. I had resolved to live the life of an addict. When I got to prison, I made a choice to get sober. I wanted to do something different. I didn’t know how or what – just that if I was going to live, something had to change.

I joined a therapeutic program in prison and ended up being asked to be a mentor. I didn’t think I could do it. I didn’t think I had anything to offer. The counselors pointed things out to me—that other women looked up to me, that multiple women had mentioned my name as someone who helped them through a struggle. I wondered if maybe I could make a difference.

For so much of my life, I felt like I didn’t matter. Like I was a lost cause. Hopeless. That program was the start of building my confidence. Getting to The Next Door helped my healing process. For me the hardest part of recovery was self-love, but the staff at The Next Door gave me the blessing of love. They loved me until I learned to love myself. Now, I try to offer that gift to every woman that comes to The Next Door. I want them to know that they matter.

While I was in prison, I started reading the Bible. I paid close to attention every time God said something about who He was. Growing up, I thought God was mean and hurtful. I didn’t want that God. But as I read His word, He said He was loving. And that love was unconditional. Nothing I could do or had done could change His love for me. He was accepting. He was kind. If those things were true about Him, then what He says about me is true, too. I’m not the monster I thought I was. I am forgiven. I am loved. I matter.

I think that addicts are God’s chosen people. If you read the Bible, you see that Jesus hung with prostitutes. He touched lepers. He wasn’t afraid to go near the sick. No one wanted these people. They had been secluded from the rest of society. But Jesus hugged them and loved them. The world does this with addicts—withholds things from them. Labels them. Judges them. Pushes them to the side. God says there’s a purpose on my life, that He has a plan for me. That plan is not to bring me harm. He tells me I am fearfully and wonderfully made. So I believe it.

Recovery is full of ups and downs. Acceptance is the key. Life hasn’t gotten easier. I’ve just learned how to deal with life on life’s terms. There’s always a solution that doesn’t include getting high. Keep a list of sober contacts. Get a sponsor. Keep yourself rooted in the recovery community. Remain humble. Give God the credit. He’s the one who saved me.

You matter. You are loved. You can do this. You don’t got it, but you can do it.